Have you ever felt like screaming out loud? I do. Every time the phone rings and another random 866 or out of state number shows on the caller ID. Or when I go to the mailbox and see another stack of bills and late notices that I can't pay.
Despite how this all sounds, I have a job. A rather good job comparatively considering the financial crisis. But I still can't seem to make ends meet. Every month, my checking account is overdrawn and some bills are left unpaid until the next month. I feel so guilty. My son deserves better, but I know that at least for the time being, he's got a full belly and a roof over his head at night.
Alright, so maybe I shouldn't be that frustrated. Maybe I should just be grateful for the fact that I'm able to continue to barely keep my head above water. Please don't get me wrong, I do realize that things could be much, MUCH worse. As I mentioned in the "About Me" portion of the blog... this is just me, venting. After I vent, I can see the glass as half full again. :)
Our power was turned off last week. I hadn't paid that bill in a couple of months, but the day before I had electronically scheduled the bill to be paid in full, the power was shut off. I was in tears. Correction... I was furious, angry, embarrassed, and then tears. I cried in front of my son for the first time. He, in turn, began crying because I was crying. But, after a whole 45 seconds of tears, I finally came to a state of acceptance. I was immediately on the phone. I had to float an electronic check until the next day. Unfortunately, this all didn't occur until after 6:30 PM. The service people worked until 9:00 PM, so I had a slim chance that power could be back on before then. But it didn't turn out that way. Fortunately, I had enough time to scramble around and look in the moving boxes for candles and/or working flashlights. Came up with about half a dozen candles and two camping lanterns. So we weren't completely in the dark and fortunately, I have a gas stove. So dinner and bathing by candlelight. Shuttled my son off to a friends house for the evening because I had to work the night shift. Power was restored at 8:30 AM the following day.
Now, my power bill is overpaid, so I shouldn't have to worry about that one for another couple of months!
